Tuesday 12 February 2013
Hati aku tersentuh bila membaca sebuah novel ini. Sedih bila mengenangkan diri aku sama rupanya seperti yang digambarkan didalam novel tersebut. Tapi aku lebih teruk. Dalam hati ini banyak menangis bila membaca novel tue. Bukan sebab ceritanya tapi sebab jalan ceritanya lebih kurang dengan gaya hidup aku. Tapi mengapa si Lisa cepat berubah? Sebab ada orang yang nak membimbing dia ke jalan yang betul. Aku?? Nak harapkan diri aku, jauh panggang dari api. Susah sangat-sangat!!! Kadang-kadang geram dengan diri aku. Why I cannot change? Not for other but for myself! Lydia is right. I'm not change for people but I change for Allah. Just ignore what people say because they never judge me at Padang Mashyar later. Why must I care what people saying? Did they save me in hellfire later? No, right? I think my decision for being in foreign country is very strong right now. Again, Lydia is right because sometimes we cannot see the right path if we still in our country. Because we think more safety here. No more worried bout anything. Just happy be yourself here.
